Not good at coming up with titles..

I can't even begin to explain how scared I am right now for the next few days to go by. Dustin is getting deployed for six months. This is our first deployment. He told me that it takes his ship at least two weeks to get to the first place they are going to. This means I won't hear his voice for that amount of time. That breaks my heart. I don't know what I am going to do. Every day I long for the few phone calls that I get from him. They are what keep me alive. I know things will be okay, because we have no other choice. I know whenever he's underway we survive through emails, but the thing is, his longest underway so far has only been three days. THREE DAYS! NOW ITS SIX MONTHS! Going from three days to six months is going to be so hard and I honestly don't know how I am going to get through this. I know I have plenty of people to talk to to get me through this, and I couldn't thank them enough for all of there support. But you all know that its not the same. It helps, but the only thing that could make it better is him. I try to stay strong for him because when I'm sad, he's sad. Same goes for when he is sad, I'm sad. He has my heart and I have his at all times.

I keep telling myself I'm going to start doing things while he's gone because I can't sit around the house all day and be sad. But the thing is, I have no desire to do anything but that. My heart hurts when I can't be with him or talk to him. He's my soulmate.

But I HAVE to. I can't waste my life away and be depressed all the time. As much as I would just love to curl up in a ball and sleep until he comes home, I just can't. Sooooo

1. I'll start going to the gym again. I have to get back into shape. Gotta look good when my baby comes back in October, and for my wedding in May!
2. Maybe I'll start reading even though I've never been a fan of that before. Never liked writing either, so apparently things can change. I just know that there are a lot of good military books out there that I would like to check out.
3. I have a lot to do with school. I'm transferring schools, changing my major and going to try to cram an associates degree into a year and a half. We'll see how that goes.
4. Wedding planning! Of course! That's obviously going to keep me occupied, but I just wish Dustin was here to help me.
5. Oh I almost forgot! I'm so excited! My parents and I are going to Ohio this summer so they can meet the future in laws! I can't wait to see them all again. I miss them!

I guess thats it for today. I should go to the gym or something, but of course I won't. Maybe tomorrow...   

Operation plan this wedding is underway!

So the fiancée and I have been thinking of changing the date of our wedding from September 3rd 2011 to May of 2011. That means I have to start planning pretty much now. Dustin will be gone till sometime in October and once he gets back our wedding will only be five months away. I have to plan this wedding somewhat alone. Anyways, right now I'm working on our guest list, and it is honestly a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. Dustin is from Ohio, meaning all his guests live there. I live in Rhode Island, so the wedding is going to be here. I feel bad because I know the majority of our guests are going to be from my side. I really hope that our guests have enough time to make plans to make it to our wedding. We're thinking/hoping for our wedding to have around 100 guests.

We obviously have a budget, and I don't know exactly who to invite and if they should bring a guest or whatnot.  

I don't even know why I'm worrying about all this now. Invitations and save the date cards aren't even supposed to get sent out until about three months before the wedding, I think.

Oh jeeze I have a lot to think about with this wedding, but I am beyond excited to start actually planning =]

Of course its not too late to start looking at dresses, right? I saw this one and fell in love;

Alright, sorry I lied

Why can't I stay away from you today blog? I have no idea. Since I have nothing better to do at the moment, I figure I will enlighten you with the lovely modifications I have on my body.

Starting with my tattoos. I already posted my two most recent, the lyrics and the letter. My first one is the Japanese symbol which means 'sisters'. I got it on my 18th birthday with my sister. We both have it, I on my right side and her on her left. We got them done at Pandora's Box Tattoo and I probably won't ever go back there. He was overpriced and not even that good. Numbers two and three are two black and pink nautical stars on my lower back (not a trampstamp though, I promise =P) My good friend Travis came with me to get them done. I got these at Inkognito Tattoo and I vow to never go anywhere else but here for any of my future tattoos. He does amazing work and excellent prices. My fourth and favorite so far is a bird with a vine in its mouth kind of holding an anchor. The vine is used instead of a rope. My explanation of this tattoo always sucks so its a lot easier to see it in person or a picture, and right now, a picture will have to do =] It says 401 on the anchor which is my area code. I love lil Rhode Island.

 

 

I have ten piercings at the moment, last week I had eleven (RIP lip piercing) It was being annoying and it hurt a little even though I had it for almost a year, so I decided just to take it out. The majority of being on my ears. I have three in each lobe, tragus on both ears, my industrial on my right ear and my nose on my left side. I used to have my lobes stretched to a 0g but I took them out and they shrunk right back down to a 14g so I can wear normal earrings again.

Okay so I promise now, no more blogs today!  Byeeee =]

How we met..

Last post of the day, I promise =P I'm just bored and have quite a bit of catching up to do..

I met my fiancée while he was stationed in CT at sub school. I live in Rhode Island, and Dustin happened to be in Providence at a night club which is about an hour away from the sub school. He hates the clubs, started getting bored and was about to leave. Then he sees me walk in the door, doesn't say anything and just grabs me and we start dancing. We had an amazing night together and I got his phone number before we left. I texted him the next day and he convinced me to visit him. Again, we had an amazing night together, said our goodbyes because he was supposed to leave for Chicago the next day. I honestly didn't think I was going to see him again and I was devastated. The next day I get a text from him telling me that something went wrong with some paperwork and he won't be leaving. It was the best news I had ever heard. We instantly started dating. He did end up leaving, but it wasn't for three months later. He is originally from Ohio, but came here on his leave last month and we got engaged! He'll be getting deployed soon, and I won't see him till October. We're getting married September of 2011 and I can't wait. I can't wait to move down to Florida and be with him!

Some cute things I found =]

 
 
 
 

I love my sailor!

Oh boy I really need to start being more productive with my life. Today I have nothing to do. No work, class, nothing. But I'm just sitting on my ass reading blogs and eating left over Chinese takeout from last night. I just can't wait to get married and to start my new life because to be quite honest, I'm fed up and bored with this one. If only I could travel through time. I hate being away from Dustin. He isn't even deployed yet, and we are about a thousand miles away. We get to talk a good amount through out the day. I get a few phone calls and texts here and there while he's working, and then once he's out we can talk until he has to go to sleep. I treasure being able to talk to him, because starting soon, when he gets deployed, I'll be surviving on emails and I don't know when I'll hear his voice again. 

Anyway, on a more positive note, my parents are on vacation right now in Florida, pretty close to where Dustin is stationed. So lucky them, they get to pick him up tomorrow and spend the weekend with him. Obviously I'm jealous, I want to see my man too! But I am beyond happy for him. He really needs and deserves to be around people who love him, especially when theres only days before he gets deployed. I wish I could be there when he leaves. This is our first deployment and hopefully last. I know we'll get through it because 1)we have no choice, and 2)nothing could ever tare us apart. Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

Oh and my parents adore him! Man does that make me happy. Obviously I have a bias saying this but Dustin is honestly the perfect man. He is everything I could ever ask for; my soulmate. He has a great head on his shoulders, a positive attitude towards life. His goals and ambitions make me so proud. He truly makes me want to be a better person.

I love his family too! They made me feel so welcome into their family, and I can not wait to officially be part of it. And I think they like me too! score!

I really need to start blogging more. I actually hate reading and writing but it really is a way to vent. I sincerely doubt anyone is reading this, but I don't mind. This is a way to say whatever I want and not worry about what people have to say back. I obviously would like some feedback but hey, I can do without. Sooo I will definitely try to get on here more. I enjoy this.

But really, the real reason I decided to log back on and start up again was because I happened to be browsing through some randoms blogs and came upon this one:

I read her blog for about an hour and some today. I'm looking forward to keeping up with it.

Tattoos

Dustin and I decided to get matching tattoos while he was home on leave. I miss him so much. I'm not ready for this deployment. I feel so amazing sharing this tattoo with him. I can't explain it, but I never knew him and I could become closer but having his initial on my body forever just gives me such an amazing feeling. And knowing he has mine also make me feel great. The two of us each got the first letter of or first name, I got a D, he got a G. We also got, the lyrics to Drive by Incubus. 'Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there'. I think those lyrics are perfect for us. With him being in the Navy and always being away, he knows I'm going to be by his side forever. If we aren't together physically, we will always be together in our hearts.

This was Dustin's first, and second tattoos and my fifth and sixth.

 

 

 

Some photos

My fiancée and I recently got engaged so I figured I would post a few of my favorite pictures from our engagement photo shoot =]

 

Hello

My fiancée and I are planning on getting married in September of 2011. My parents fully support us but they want me to get some sort of degree before I get married and move away. I understand why they want that because they are looking out for me, but I'm having a hard time with it. Right now I am in my second year of college and I am a Justice Studies Major. I want to chance it to Diagnostic Medical Sonography. In order to do that I will have to transfer to a local community college in the fall, which I am totally fine with because I don't really like the school I'm at now anyways. I originally planned to take classes all next year and all next summer in order to get my associates degree, but I just found out that there are numerous classes I need to take in order to even get in to the program. I'm going to have to work full time this summer and take the classes I need for the program. So from now until September of 2011 I have to start over with college, get some sort of degree, and plan a wedding all while my sailor is away! I'm just a little overwhelmed and frustrated right now and needed to vent. I guess thats the whole point of having a blog, and the reason I even made one in the first place.